Nimet | Beirut to Cairo … wars

You asked me what was taken and what still remains…

My hopes were big before the war ended in Beirut.

Now that it is over I have to revise everything I was thinking.

My plans for my life were so much greater then.

It’s like even my dreams have been scaled back to something so much smaller.

It’s not that I am nostalgic for the war, but the war gave us something…

Even as it took so much away.

That heightened state of existence, that moment when you know that…

Everything… every single thing… Really does matter…

It really is life and death…

It was all so much more than anything seems now.

I could dream bigger dreams, think bigger thoughts, imagine so much more…

Now that I am here, away from all of that, it’s like everything is so much smaller.

I have to revise what I was thinking and scale down my dreams.

Before I thought, if I can do this, I can do anything…

There’s nothing I can’t do!

Now, it’s like I can’t even do the simplest things…

Something broke in me there.

It’s still broken here.